“Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be”...
Once in a while something happens and it forces me to re-evaluate the way I'm approaching life and success. A divorce, a wake up call, single parenting, the sudden realization that my future is entirely up to me - it makes you set yourself straight. So while on some days I feel entirely overwhelmed by what I am not accomplishing I have to focus on the things that I am. I don't have the tools or support readily available to me and so I have to create them myself. And I am.
I am a makeup artist. I am a writer. I am designing a line. I would like to launch my non-profit. I work on websites. I raise my daughter alone. I stress. I have self doubt. I have a sense of purpose. I cannot falter. It is so easy to look at what other people are doing and think, hey there is so much I'm NOT doing but that's totally unproductive. I can think of them or I can focus on my journey. I'm not here in this world to be a lazy or stagnant woman. I have to heal and I have to give this world something extraordinary. I owe that to my child. I owe that to myself. I owe that to anyone who has ever believed in me. Everyone has their own adventure to take and this is mine. I cannot give up. I cannot lose faith. I cannot count on anyone else to help me through it because then I'm only waiting. A gain.
I have a world that is open to both me and my daughter and while most days I do feel like we're going it alone I cannot let that stop me. So now I have to have a solid plan. What do I need? What can I put into the universe? What can I hope to achieve? This blog is sort of my soapbox. Not a place to bitch and whine because I really get annoyed when people do that. It's just the truth. So this month I have had one makeup job, I booked one commercial with Attorney General Kelly, I am writing my treatment for JJ, am crossing my fingers and doing EVERYTHING I can to get signed with William Morris/Endeavor, am going to find a workout routine I can stick to, am trying to change my attitude about a LOT of things, am working on not being too focused on others, and well, the most important thing: succeeding at all of them.
On a side note, I'm going to be adding the long and incredibly insightful Facebook thread regarding Illegal Immigration and Arizona soon. Seriously people, the word "illegal" should be the first clue.
AND finally, my latest writing excursion will be a sort of ode to David Photonotdead - a brilliant photographer with a social conscience that makes my soul soar... Here is the photo:
