random spout

New day. New beginning. New possibilities. THAT is how I see my new life. I have finally taken the real tangible steps towards freedom on all levels. I moved into my new place and it is heavenly! The sense of being away from all things that remind me of the life I've left behind is now open to be gone and my daughter and I are now on a new journey together. I can't wait to share this journey with her. It's hard in some ways because I worry about her feeling "broken" because of the divorce but the upside is now he and I (my ex and I) can truly be happy without the draining burdens we carried when we were together. She can see us happy and see real love. It takes a big person to know when to walk away and he and I were able to do that. In the grand scheme of things, I know my baby girl will see that and be so thankful we gave her a chance at seeing something real and possible.

90% of the time I believe the "rules" of society are what place that burdensome feeling of failure on us. For a truly evolved society, we are quite un-evolved in the realm of acceptance of others and the "American" ideal. Divorce can be something used as a means of escape but for me, it was a long process and exhausting every resource to get to this. We came to the conclusion long ago but believed in trying to make it all work and being certain we gave it our all before the final straw. And gratefully, we did try everything only to end up exactly where we knew we would be inevitably.

And now the journey of a new life begins...