First thing's first - my www.dawngarcia.com site is in the process of being re-launched so that is why there haven't been any blogs. After computer crashed - yeah, that again - I had to start over.
“Civilization is drugs, alcohol, engines of war, prostitution, machines and machine slaves, low wages, bad food, bad taste, prisons, reformatories, lunatic asylums, divorce, perversion, brutal sports, suicides, infanticide, cinema, quackery, demagogy, strikes, lockouts, revolutions, putsches, colonization, electric chairs, guillotines, sabotage, floods, famine, disease, gangsters, money barons, horse racing, fashion shows, poodle dogs, chow dogs, Siamese cats, condoms, peccaries, syphilis, gonorrhea, insanity, neuroses, etc., etc.” - Henry Miller
Oh how I missed blogging! With a new website up and running and my writing site about to be re-launched I've not had the time to actually get out all the insanity sifting through my mind. I recently celebrated 35 years of life. In that time I realized I've seen quite a bit. I've experienced living, I've experienced death, I've experienced love and parenthood, sadness and despair, joy and success, self-awareness, war, hate, violence, injustice, neglect, hope, dreams, the realization of dreams, art, loyalty, fickle friends, tremendous human beings, the simple happiness of seeing my daughter look at me for the first time, marriage and an impending divorce, family isolation, the knowledge that some people will never open their eyes long enough to see you, the acceptance that I am me and I will not apologize for it.
When I think of things that have progressed in this world like technology - I remember being in grade school and someone saying "one day there will be phones that have a video camera and you can actually SEE the person you're talking to". I laughed and thought, "yeah, you've watch too many Jetson's episodes" and then ten years later everything we thought was unimaginable became part of our everyday lives. Amazing what a single idea can do. Even more amazing when someone says "screw everyone else" and just goes after their idea. In the end, millions, perhaps billions, have benefited. The point is nothing is impossible. And while that can be wonderful and exciting it can also be dangerous. So ... in the next 35 years of my life I will bring more beauty and purpose into this world because somehow we've lost our way.
Somehow we have become a world obsessed with the outside. We have become overcome with the need for power and more and people will take it at any cost. What we MUST find our way back to is hope and faith in humanity. We have to give the world something beautiful. At least I do. What a waste all of this will have been if I do nothing to make it better than I found it. There is this sweet, loving, beautiful little girl I helped bring into the world that reminds me every single day why I MUST always work towards being the best me I can be.
In my 35 years I have also learned how many people can be. There are all sorts living and breathing among us but the key is to find the genuine ones. The ones that aren't saboteurs and actually take part in your happiness. Trust me you will find snakes all over the place but don't lose heart - there are some truly unique and good heart-ed people living among you and me. We will all exist in a way that the world can't help but take notice so if you are a real artist or have something beautiful to offer the world, don't hesitate. In the same breath, don't stand in the way of others working so hard to make their lives more beautiful or their path more enlivened. If you do you are only cheating yourself.
